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Mom
🕑 Added 2021-09-04 18:10:48 +0000 UTCI hate to change the mood on your day and please don’t take this as pain. I’m just expressing myself but I’m doing so much better. With that being said…….
This was hard. The funeral was today and I don’t know how I could ever do this ever again. I have no more of these in me. This is pain that nothing can match.
I know death is the 1 thing that’s promised to us all and it’s now real to me and I’m scared of it.
I’ve been living in fear for the past week and I know it’s not healthy to live this way. I can’t cheat myself out of the one life I get so I’m working to change that mentality.
Now I understand the saying “live everyday like it’s your last”. I get it now. I’m hurt it took me 33 years to finally understand that saying. I have an amazing family and amazing community I can laugh with on YouTube all day with. I’m soooo blessed.
I promise you all, I’m doing ok and read EVERY post on here and social media from you all and I’m seriously healing. It felt good to laugh at all the memories with my family and that is what’s getting me by.
I love you all sooooo much!! Thank you all so much for the support system. I didn’t know how much I would need the support and sheeeesh!! You all just don’t know how amazing it is to know I have another family with you all 🥲🤗
Thank you, God for the strength you gave me and my family today.
I 💜 U, Mom!
I 💜 U, ARMY!
Comments
Charles Green
I’m so sorry for your loss as well. It hurts but you’re right, thanks to ARMY and family, it’s making my healing process a little easier. ARMY has been a huge help to us all in these hard times. Thanks so much for the amazing words and no need to apologize for your English, I 100% understood you :D 🤗💜🤗💜🤗💜
Eriko English
I'm sorry for about your mother. I have not check patreon often and I found it just today. I lost my American husband 4/21/2021 at our home because he was hospice patient. We don't have children I have four rescue cat and living in USA alone. We had been married for 29 years but he had been really sick because he had spinal cord injury for more than 15 years. Since January I knew he will not be with me our anniversary September. People asking me "Are you OK?" all-time. Kind of I'm glad because he has no more in pain. Many times still I'm not OK and cry. But really I'm grateful I'm BTS ARMY for more than 6 years. Many ARMYs and BTS helping me a lot. And your video helping me too. I will retire next year my bucket list is I will got to BTS concert, visit my country Japan and South Korea. I believe my husband gave to me wonderful retirement present. Sorry my English. Charlie I love you. If you starting cry no reason It's natural.
Your Hope, Your Angel 💜
You are a great person. I love you Charlie.
