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Surrosluts: A Train Fire, Extinguished Too Late
🕑 Added 2020-02-03 00:50:11 +0000 UTCWhen your train is on fire, which of the following do you do:
1.) Stop the train, put out the fire, fix what caused the fire originally, and then get the train running again?
2.) Hold on for dear life and hope the fire puts itself out before you run out of railroad track?
For too long now, I've been aware of the fact that this train is on fire, and unfortunately, I've been holding on for dear life, when I should have been putting the fire out.
After all, it was just a 3-week trip. I could ride it out, take the heat. Then it became 6 weeks.
Then 8 weeks. Then 10. Then 12. And all the while, as those weeks just continued to grow, that fire wasn't getting any colder. Oh no, that fire had no intentions of going out.
And sitting next to that fire was getting mighty hot indeed. But I could ride it out, I continued to tell myself. I could still take the heat.
What's worse is, I DID run out of track. But instead of then putting out the fire, I instead jumped out and hurriedly laid down more track so that the train can continue to barrel onward, flames blazing out the windows.
I tried to convince myself that it would all work out.
But it didn't. It never would. It never will. Fires don't put themselves out. They keep burning until someone puts them out, or they consume everything they can.
I wish I saw this sooner. I wish I acted sooner. But I can't take the heat anymore. I am putting this fire out now.
The train that is on fire is Surrosluts. And the delays from December to January, and now January to February, weren't to put out the fire. They were to put down more track, to keep barreling on with a project that I knew desperately needed a complete rewrite.
But it's too little, too late now. I won't compromise my schedule for 2020 to put this fire out. I'm just going to let the train barrel off the track and plunge into the river.
I am going to take the two-thousand-dollar loss.
I am canceling Surrosluts.
I will revisit the idea in 2021. I think it's a great idea. I absolutely love it. And I want to do it right.
And Surrosluts, as it is written right now, does not do it right. I tried to be something I am not, tried to write in a way that I cannot write, and the quality suffered.
So while Surrosluts the project has died and will never see the light of day, Surrosluts the idea lives strong in my heart. I can't make it now, but I will make it as soon as I can. And I will do it justice. I will do all of YOU justice.
I sincerely apologize to everyone.
Comments
Lord Aardvark
As I posed to Sleepnir, please: give me a comprehensive list of all the times this has happened, with explicit projects and timelines. Then compare it to the 19 released videos on my Films page and additional handful released before that page was put together. Then tell me again just how *predictable* this is.
Zarith Zainudin
That's the flowchart, first the delay and then the cancellation. I've seen it all from you, very predictable now.
Mr Funkay
Aww no worries, thank you for the update! I also think Surrosluts is a cool idea! No need to apologise. You are trying your best :)
dont apologize β€π dont apologize β€π
Lord Aardvark
Unfortunately I don't keep my ear to the ground. I'm sure some nice people over in the #other-artists channel of my Discord could help you out though!
john cattle
hey, more time to work on some samus stuff with that awsome new rig you made! Btw, do you know of any artists who are already using it? I'd like to see it in action
RemnantRyku
Unfortunate indeed and of course disappointing for everyone, especially yourself, but...ever forward. We must always keep moving forward. You may no longer have a train, but you do have your feet. May your journey be fruitful this 2020.
Larile Millvet
This is disappointing, but I get it. IMO 2019 has kicked a few of your peers in the backside for similar reasons; overcommitting effort, underestimating the true workload, setting insanely high expectations of their final product, needing to accept they can't do it all alone. All that can feed a vicious cycle too.
Lord Aardvark
And how many has this happened to, exactly? Feel free to explicitly name each project this has happened to, up against the 19 released videos visible on my Films page https://lordaardvark.com/html/films.html (to say nothing of the additional 6 or so that were released before my Films page was established).
Sleepnir
Amazing how many of your projects this happens to
Lyner
No worries dude, let the fire burn out and rebuild it from the ashes better than ever.
Sean Bradford
RIP, was looking forward to this one
Ethranoch
Yeah if you can't do a project it's better not to force it. Hopefully you can find the time later to recoup the time and resources spent on what's already done.
Chase the Dragon
Np.
Dark Rooster
So you are the reason for the Australian bush fires. No worries m8.
EchoTheWorld
It's ok, dont apologize β€π
Blue-LeadersQ
Awesome Work ππΊπππππ
