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winter blues
🕑 Added 2019-02-02 12:38:33 +0000 UTChey all, thought i'd post here since i haven't much lately. it's been a very emotionally challenging winter for both internal and external reasons and i'm doing everything i can to power through it. getting all the Mx5 CDs out was a pretty huge undertaking for me right now, but it's finally out of the way.
i started an EP project, Monarch of Death Rave II, but had it immediately fall by the wayside as any urge to make particularly aggressive music disappeared as quickly as it came to be. it's still on my bucket list, but it's not something i can focus on right now.
i feel drawn to producing some really no-frills upbeat rave stuff, so i might follow that and see where it goes.
right now it's mostly about brain health, though. i managed to come off of my medication as i felt the negatives outweighed the positives on it finally, only to realize that i probably need to be on it a little longer. so i'm back on at a lower dose and trying to find a happy medium. my energy levels are a little sporadic. some days i could work or talk for hours, while others (the majority right now) i just feel the need to lay down and sleep.
there's no doubt in my mind that i'm getting *better*, but right now is incredibly confusing mentally.
that's all for now. wish i had more to say or show, but even hobby projects to keep me fresh are very slow moving right now.
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I have similar experiences and I wish you the very best. It's a cliche but I find it useful to remind myself that mental health is not a straight path.
