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settling in, weird vibes, etc
🕑 Added 2022-08-02 06:21:00 +0000 UTChey all, hope you're well. it felt kind of weird to say "ok, i'm mostly situated at the new place" then say nothing for some time, so here is a further update.
i've been poking at projects left unfinished at the time of the move, and it's been worryingly hard to get into any kind of zone or groove at all. nothing really feels like much of anything, and everything i do feels very uninspired and negative. i don't really know why this is, and also don't feel like i'm in much of a place to ask much about it - i'm probably just exhausted and don't want to admit that upending a decade of my life and having to adjust to something different is taking longer than i would like. i tend to be very hard on myself in regards to my output needing to be constant and visible, and i always think very poorly of myself for not delivering - not for others, even, but for myself - even when all of my energy is going towards other things that need to take priority.
i have been working on a third track for the current EP-in-progress, and i hope that resolving its current state will help a lot with motivation, it's always nice to just get stuff done. i can only get a lot of work done in the evening hours at the moment, as my studio is too humid to work in (and i can't run a powerful dehumidifier and my air conditioner on the same circuit) during the day. thankfully there will really only be another month of this heat and humidity, and i also hope that will energize me a bit. being on the third floor of an apartment (or in an apartment at all) is new to me, so i wasn't really prepared for what it would do to my body. i have to spend most of the day in the living room by the air conditioner for now, and working there is an ergonomic nightmare, so mostly i've been sketching out ideas on my iPad to bring back into the studio for refining once it cools down...
i do quite like the place so far, it's just going to take some time for me to feel, idk. sane, lol. i am unpacking a lot of stuff mentally that was just kind of stewing while i stagnated at my last place.
it looks like the batch of HALCYONDAZE reprints will be arriving next week or so, and shipping will start as soon as they arrive.
i think that's it for now. hopefully more and better news soon. thanks for the love and support through this admittedly very uncomfortable in-between time.
Comments
Cobertos
Hoping the winter brings a bit more comfort to your work space. Hardest thing on my brain is the nagging distractions of an improper environment
Pink Lemming
Moving is extremely hard on the mind. Take your time to rest and readjust, emma. We will be here when you're ready!
