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June Progress Report & Patreon Hiatus

🕑 Added 2024-06-25 23:24:41 +0000 UTC

Comments

Pauliboiii

I don't wanna burden you with my opinion, as I am just a stranger from Internet-land, but this all sounds very healthy and wise of you. I am glad for all the fun you have delivered and will be happily looking forward to the things you feel like doing in the future. Lots of fellow-artist-love ^-^

Cory!

Beeeees! I love your stuff, no matter what you do, I'm just glad when i see you doing.

Kylie Willett

I just want to join the positive reinforcement here and say how proud and relieved i am you've made this choice. As a creative and a business owner, i can deeply empathise with the impact of self-imposed standards when there's a commercial reality to grapple with. I wish i had made similar choices earlier in my career instead of accepting them as the cost of doing business. I hope you find your spark again and some ways to do the work that aren't as punishing. Best wishes <3

Auden Granger

Just wanted to say that I personally would be happy to continue to support on Patreon (and be charged on the billing cycle) even if you're not posting anything/creating new work. I'm here to support you as a person and creator, not because of any specific work you are making!

Olivier R.

It's okay to be kind to yourself.

VixenFeather

Hey man, take all the time you need. Burnout and feeling anxious about not making things "good enough" are completely valid reasons to need to take a step back. Your fans support you no matter what, even if you need to go on an indefinite hiatus. Taking care of yourself and your mental health is top priority. We'll still be here when you feel better!

Annie Shutelock

Take as long of a break as you need! Thank you for being so open, I'm sending this video to my creator partner who also needs to take a break. You're setting a good example for us all. I want you to know that I only discovered your work a few months ago and have been catching up, and it has brought me such joy and even peace when I might otherwise be super anxious or depressed. When I'm low I play RGSS on repeat because it's such a pure expression of silly joy. Love seeing you so much on Dropout.tv, looking forward to Nobody Asked!! 🤓

Hector P. Valenti star of stage and screen

Yeah, man. Take whatever time you need. I don't really care about the schedule you put stuff out on, I just want you to make cool stuff you're proud of, because I enjoy it when you do!

Terra

Just wanted to say: burnout sucks, but I pay this as my way to say I appreciate and support what you do, even if that’s spending a few months off to figure your shit out. Please take care of yourself, you’re awesome.

Noah

I still want to pay you < 😠 >

Munt Jam

Watching BDG videos gives me vitality

Empress Janeway

Good for you BDG! We stan a self care king <3

Michael Dahn

Sounds like the right choice for you. Take it easy, boss. *hands you a metaphorical breakfast sandwich*

Dot

Thanks for letting us in on what’s up and talking so candidly about it! That’s so cool and also so important to have floating around in the creative ecosystem so thanks for that gift! And thanks for calling out the tortured artist idea as BS (I’m also a working artist and VERY OVER this idea existing). Hope you find what you need in this break, or that it finds you!

ZomBro_BOSS

After all these years, he's a keeper of bee's

Maximilian Rodli

Brian, I just want you to know you are one of my favorite creative minds of all time. You're pretty brilliant. Take a good break, your art IS worthwhile.

Misha Grifka

I hope your break is restorative! I love your work, but I care about the health and wellbeing of the person making it more.

Anna Elo

good job knowing when enough is enough and taking steps to fix it. I wish you a good recovery and hope things will be okay❤️

eveningdreamer

take care! burnout is a bitch. don't come back too fast, because it takes MONTHS to recover from.

Lauren Wilde

Really sorry you’ve been feeling burned out - hopefully you manage to figure out a healthier, more sustainable way of working and seeing your work and yourself! I’ve watched so many of your videos because of your humour and what you bring to the video in both performance and scripting. I get that keeping the Patreon billing cycle open can add more pressure but whenever I’ve supported artists or creatives I’ve always assumed that part of that financial support goes toward supporting your rest, too. Some of the best creative work comes out of a period of resting and doing nothing related to the work, and I would have been fine to keep supporting you during the hiatus. But I can understand the pressure that might feel like it adds. Regardless, hope you are soon able to feel like yourself again and enjoy your work.

RAD

Adding to the cacophony of: self care is important and we're all cheering for you. Take time, take a breath, and take in the positivity here from your fans.

Mark Spark

I'm glad you're taking the necessary steps to look after yourself! We prefer our artists happy, healthy, and creating things that bring them joy (even if we personally don't see that work! That's also an option!). Take care!

Lucas

Good luck with your break!! Take care of yourself ❤️

Jake Wood

Art includes down time. ♥️

NoxDeluc

Take a good break, refocus, have some fun. I'm excited for the future productions you have and I adore your talents. Best of luck BDG!

Scott Henderson

Hope you can step back and stake care of yourself BDG! You are awesome!

Jag

Hey Brian, I hope your break from Patreon helps you recover. I’ve been through creative burnout myself (I work as art director in video games) in 2021, so I really feel what you said about recognizing your inability to see your self worth for what it is. I know you more than likely have an excellent support system already, so just from one of the many people who really believes in you; how you feel is temporary, and you got this! As my therapist told me back then, please make sure you take real breaks for yourself as well, especially if you love what you do! ♥️

Katherine

Speaking for myself, I’ve never been disappointed in anything you’ve shared. Take all the time you need, burnout is pernicious, and we’ll be here when you’re ready!

Elizabeth Parmeter

Take care and I hope the time gives you the distance and rest you need.

Taylor

Redownloaded patreon just to comment. I definitely teared up hearing you describe your situation especially the self doubt aspects. I don't know your relationship with your polygon work, but I know discovering your work there was one of the profoundly inspiring moments of my life - both creatively, and also just in terms of seeing someone who could bring an idea to life with so much palpable energy. I hope nothing more than for you to find your internal rhythm once again. Love that you've already acknowledged the role of real human community in finding a sustainable flow and hope you continue to lean on your support circle to find that ideal state. Much love my guy!!!

Hannah G.

Love your work, BDG. You and your well-being are definitely more important than the work! Take care of yourself

Willis Harvey

Burnout is terrible. I appreciate your honesty and taking a step to address it. I'm going through something similar and have also tried a "break" to feel more "refreshed" to subpar results. Burnout by Emily and Amelia Nagoski is a fantastic book my wife, several therapists, and others have recommended to me. Might be worth a read if you're into that sort of thing. Take care!!

Lomky

I fully respect your knowledge of what you need to do, and pausing for your mental health sake. I, and I bet many others, do reassure you that I'm not here as a transactions deal. I am not buying rewards, I'm supporting your creative process which _includes_ rest

Neesi S.

Take care of yourself, Brian! Your work has value and I love what you make, even the small, silly, unpolished things. We'll be here when you get back ❤️

Allison

burnout sucks, sometimes you just need to take some space from the work to find the fun in it again. hope the next few months treat you well!

Ash

Burnout? That tracks. I feel you with the self imposed stress thing. :/ Please take care of yourself. I'm glad that you're pausing the Patreon for a bit instead of trying to push through and making your self esteem worse. Have a good break

Erin O'Boyle

That burnout paralysis is so real. I didn’t realize how much it was affecting me at my corporate job until I was in dire need to take a leave of absence. I’m so excited to hear you’re taking this time to reprioritize and think about what will be sustainable and joyful for you in the future! From one burnout to another, I highly recommend finding a nice place to sit outside with your favorite comfort beverage of choice and rest. My front porch and a cup of tea got me through the month of May. Hoping you find that rest again soon!

shaboogen

I can't speak for anyone else (though I suspect that I'm not alone in this viewpoint), but I've always viewed this patreon as a way to show my appreciation for an artist whose work i enjoy, and not as a quid pro quo to gain more from you. I feel this to the point that if you weren't really making that much stuff, I would continue to contribute to the Patreon for as long as it wasn't a financial burden to do so. Having gone through a similar journey, I know that dealing with any form of mental struggle about your self-worth isn't particularly fun, and I hope that a period of reflection brings you the space you need to realise how much value you bring to everything you do.

rionsanura

you know what, i'm really proud of you for taking the step back. recognizing what isn't helping is one thing, but actually taking action and figuring out a way to rest is huge! i hope your summer is delightful!

psychicwaffles

Burnout (and the surrounding mental health fallout from burnout) is the absolute worst, but it sounds like you've got a good plan for it. Seeing the stuff you make is the best but I'm pretty sure none of us want you to feel bad over making any of it, and we're all just having fun hanging out no matter how ""productive"" you are, so yeah please don't feel bad on our behalf (i know you know this but I thought it bore repeating). All of this to say you're doing great, and I hope the break helps!

Well-Spoken Rambler

That self-imposed pressure is something I relate to quite strongly, so I completely understand and approve of the pause - I hope you have a good summer and get to enjoy what you’re doing with other people.

Grug Brugsley xox

Not the BEES

Ion Soul

A KEEPER OF BEES! Oh, Brian, you marvellous man, you are so appreciated. I’ve loved seeing you on Dropout, and I hope you’ve enjoyed being there as much as it seems. Take the time you need.

Dapper Gent

I love your food making vids , Hopefully we'll see you on dropoutv again as well!

Oskar Koernig

All good! Be kind to yourself 😊

Matthew Lavoie

Its very common feeling creative imposter syndrome, even if it's totally unfounded. Keep creating and collaborating in whatever direction you're drawn to, I haven't met a BDG project I didn't like. Hope you find the joy in your work

Amber Miller

Aw man that is rough, I totally get it! I hope that taking a break and working on collaborative stuff is helpful for getting out of that brain state. Take the time you need, I know we all wish you the best and don't want you suffer over making things!! Cheering you on! 💖

supercres

take it easy, and see you on the other side!

Noclip

Really sorry to hear you’ve been struggling, I hope some summer time off does you the world of good.

Elena Mihajlov

Stay well Brian!

Carl

You're doing the best thing for yourself, and that's all anyone following your work wants for you 💛 Look after yourself! Looking forward to what you come up with, and all your dropout work!