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Life is a series of desires
🕑 Added 2023-09-14 15:44:30 +0000 UTCI want to talk about desires.
What is it to begin with? In my understanding, this is a goal that I want to realize. To do this, you can find, master, invent and use different tools.
Desires change over time. The reason may be the environment, people, a changing view of reality.
And as soon as one desire is fulfilled, a second one, or several at once, is almost always formed. They can be structured and prioritized.
Even before I started doing 3D modeling, for as long as I can remember, my activities were almost always related to art.
It was drawing pictures with pencil, oil paints, acrylic paints, and later digital drawing.
I made figures from polymer clay, mostly uncomplicated, simple shapes, for example, a stylized cat with floral patterns instead of fur.
I even painted with food colors on flour confectionery xD
An interesting experience was making jewelry from copper wire.
For quite a long time I made drawings for forged metal products (railings, canopies, window bars). It was quite exciting and there was even a bit of creativity there.
But all this did not please me enough for me to say that at the moment this is the work of my life.
I wanted to find something more meaningful and exciting for myself.
And the most important thing on my path to becoming a 3D modeler was working in a real forge. It was a LARP workshop. Metal helmets and armor were made there. They used etching and chasing method.
This workshop also had a second department: armor for LARP made of plastic. That's where I mainly worked.
It was in order to get this job that I started studying 3D modeling. I searched the Internet for free programs and chose Blender.
My first task for getting a job was modeling a helmet. It was the helmet of Karl Franz from the Warhammer universe.
I became so interested in this that I modeled this helmet in 2 weeks. I must say that I had no experience working in 3D modeling programs. But as they say, the main thing is to want :)
I ended up getting the job.
I made master models of helmets, printed them on a 3D printer, and sanded them for hours. This was then sent to make a mold using the electroplating method.
After making the mold, plastic was poured into it and a helmet was obtained. Quite a fun process :)
I also did plastic casting in silicone molds and made templates for etching on metal armor. And a lot of other things related to armor. Everything was very varied and exciting.
I was delighted with this work and began to want to do this all my life, it was so interesting to me. I received a small salary, but I was happy. I wanted a small salary increase in the future, but this was not so important, because this work became my hobby.
But after 3 years, I had a conflict with my boss. I was treated unfairly despite my passion, initiative and great interest in my work. I was fired.
But there is one undoubted advantage in this.
This work allowed me to start selling my 3D models on stocks. One fine moment, when I made a decent number of models at my job, my boss suggested that I put them on stock (even before I was fired =)). Thanks to him for this! He did this for his own reasons - he did not want to increase my salary, although he very much praised my work.
And so, 4 years ago I put my first helmet on stock. I didn't expect anything, I just made helmets mainly for my own pleasure.
Over time, this began to generate income.
There was a desire to work only for myself, to develop my own business, which also brings a lot of pleasure.
At the moment there is quite noticeable progress in my skills, which I am constantly trying to develop.
Slowly but surely, income is growing, interesting and cool customers appear.
I'm happy with what's happening. I am gradually becoming able to satisfy my needs better.
I set new goals for myself and know that I can realize them later. For example, buying a new tablet, a gaming chair and a comfortable computer mouse.
The next thing I want is to develop Patreon, gain more fame and make 3D models mainly on Patreon and not have to do anything to order. I want the priority thing in custom work to be only my interest. I was very lucky, my last orders were exactly like this. Thank you guys, I know some of you are reading this ^_^
At the moment I am here. I want to do better next.
If you are interested, ask questions and if you want to share, what do you want in this life?
Comments
Marrion 3d
Thank you for sharing your opinion and your story. It would probably not be entirely honest to say that I purposefully started freelancing. At that moment it was the only option - I was fired and it was the beginning of a pandemic. Partially - I was lucky, partially - I grabbed this opportunity tightly =) I was terribly scared. Sometimes I had to limit myself in food. It was a terrible time for me, and I cannot advise anyone to take this path - I simply do not have the moral right. I was able to get more use out of it than I expected. Perhaps this is where I was lucky.
Wim D.
As everyone's life path and desires are different, and as the grass is always greener on the other side, this might not feel like it for you. But to me, what you described as your previous path and professional work experience is.a.dream... I'm happy for you that you got to experience it and it helped you get on your current path! I've been very much been 'searching' for what it is I want in life for the past years. I started my career at a large company, as a white collar worker, in more 'knowledge' based jobs, and my path included growing to middle management. And I am good at my job, and I earn relatively well. But to be honest, it's a golden cage and it's hard to get out of it, and it doesn't give me much energy and enjoyment. Being good at it doesn't mean I actually like doing it. I've always had a creative streak, tinkering with anything from electronics to very basic and simple 'crafts' projects (including building and painting some props, making moulds, casting resin, 3D printing, etc.). But I wouldn't call myself an 'artsy' type, I cannot draw, sculpt or compose. Not necessarily because I would not be capable of it, but because I've got no training and -due to reasons- inhibitions/thought patterns that make it harder for me to devote myself and grow into those kinds of skills. While I like doing my hobby projects the most, and am constantly yearning for more, newer skills to learn and things to make, I have difficulty actually finishing projects and having enough time and especially energy to work on them. My main job takes up a lot of my energy sadly. And I have not managed to find out what *exactly* it is I really want in life, so far it keeps eluding me. I haven't had the energy or courage these past years to starting fresh, taking risks with little certainty and with no experience/credentials in these more artistic, creative fields. Beginning on my own as freelancer feels daunting, so kudos to you for having had the courage to take that step and having worked hard for it.
Marrion 3d
I think I sat down to write this text and got a little carried away... 🤷♂️
