Samantha Blacklock
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Me in a prom dress + NSFW Sketches & Ideas + Personal Update
🕑 Added 2024-05-14 08:46:12 +0000 UTCYou've probably already seen this drawing posted on my other social media ^^ I hadn't draw myself in a while and there was this trend among trans artists to draw ourselves/our characters wearing prom dresses, as if going to a "Trans prom" x) There will be more news about this soon! But what's important is that it had to do with a bad situation for Kayla, a trans artist (https://twitter.com/KaylaArtwork in case you don't know her) (More details here: https://twitter.com/KaylaArtwork/status/1779178122195214730 ) and an effort to help her.
So, here's mine x) I wish I was this pretty IRL, but oh, well.
Now, let's talk about something different.
I have a couple of ideas for new NSFW drawings, and I've made two (really quick) sketches. As always, I'd love to know your opinion!! Especially because I'm slowly exploring new themes, and as you may already know, I don't want to give the wrong impression or make NSFW content for the sake of it, but because I want to portray something positive and romantic in the way Lynn, a trans person, explores her sexuality with her partner. The first one may be a single image, while the second one is just one of several images, as it will be a comic like "Changes" or "Don't wake me up..." (Also, I'm debating the name of the "NSFW" comic series, I like Cookie Crumbs (referring to Lizzy's freckles, and potentially a nickname for her) but I'm not sure x) Also, some time ago I wanted her to refer to her freckles as her "Manchitas de amor" (translated to English to something like "Little spots of love", but again I'm not a native English speaker, so I don't know if either of those sounds good xD
1st sketch (Single image)
It may not be clear, but the idea is that Lizzy is using a vibrator to stimulate both of them.
2nd sketch (Part of a sequence)
In this sequence the idea is that Lizzy's using a strap-on, so it's kind of an "inversion" of the roles for them x)
About the second one in particular, I think it's something they'd definitely explore, and possibly integrate to their normal sexual life.
A little piece of extra info: Lynn may get gender-affirming surgery (a.k.a. bottom surgery) at some point in the future, although she doesn't despise that part of her body and tries to make the most of it in the meantime. She doesn't hate it to the point she can't live with it, but given the chance, she would change it without a second thought x) And just to make it clear, it's different for each person and that's perfectly fine!
Please tell me what are your thoughts, and if you'd like to see those ideas finished.
Now into my personal update!
I think I've already talked about this some time ago, but I stopped HRT a bit over 2 years ago because I lost contact with my endocrinologist, and because I felt way too depressed by not seeing any noticeable changes over the 2+ years I was on it, thinking it was just a waste of money (For years I didn't have a job and had to pawn lots of things and save every peso (Mexican currency) I could to afford my hormones, so... It felt a bit useless) but now I want to start again. Even if I can't expect too much from it, the only thing I'm sure is that I regret I stopped, I should have continued by any means, and my therapist and basically everyone KNOWS that I NEED to be on HRT again, so that I'll do ^w^ I want it so bad and I can't keep waiting any longer.
To help cover the costs of blood tests, appointments with the endocrinologist and meds, I'll be taking a few commissions. If anyone here is interested, please send me a message!! I put the same effort and love in commissions that in the drawings of my girls, pelase just be patient and I'll do my best! ^w^
Some time ago I started a new goal on Ko-Fi to get a bass guitar and a keyboard. With your help and the help from those who donated on Ko-Fi, and especially Dennis and my big sis Lexi, I now have a bass! It arrived a while ago, but I was waiting until I had photos of me with it to announce it. Sadly, I didn't like the photos I took D': But in the meantime, while I take some photos I like better and recod myself playing, I present you to Lynn! (Yeah, I name my instruments by who of my girls would play them xD)
Avelyn:
Valerie (Keyboard) will have to wait, I'll use the funds currently destined to her to my HRT as well xD But for now, here are my other instruments:
Giselle:
And here's a vide of me playing her (it's a bit old, but I haven't had the chance to record myself recently, also, I'm not that good, so sorry for the mistakes)
Estelle:
Videos of me playing her: Tonal by Ocelotl (Mexican Folk Metal) | Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd (1st solo) (Also old videos)
And Eris:
(Sadly no video of me playing her yet D': )
A lof of amazing and kind people have made this possible, including Atsuko and Nina!
I wanted this to be able to make music for animations, and on that note, I'm already writing the script for one. It will be longer than "The first time I saw myself..." and probably, juuust probably, have voice too, because it will have thoughts about how before Lynn even knew she was a girl, she used to think there was no purer love than the one between two women, and how she realized over time what that idea meant for her as a lesbian transgender woman.
Anyway, it's everything for now! This was a long update x) I hope you all are having a great day <3
Comments
Samantha Blacklock
I've been thinking about this for a few days now, and honestly, I think that sums up really well how it is for Lynn. Many days she would feel uncomfortable and wouldn't want Lizzy to touch or get close to that part of her body, so she would probably focus on giving Lizzy pleasure with her fingers or her mouth. Other days she would be just fine and would be able to use her bottom to make love with Lizzy. Oral, vaginal, handjobs... Lizzy never had any trouble with Lynn's body and loves her and will continue to love her the same after a bottom surgery, but it's Lynn who decides what can be done and what should not because she's the one who can feel uncomfortable, and Lizzy understands that. Some days Lynn would love to have Lizzy inside her, even if it's with the help of a toy x) And Lizzy is all for it. Fortunately, they have such great compatibility, that none of them feels pressured by the other, or like they have to restrain. They just have good communication, besides the fact that Lizzy can read Lynn like a book xD
Rose Abrams
I've been imagining your OCs a bit myself... my headcanon is that Lynn (much like myself) could have periods on how she feels about her bottom. That she sometimes embraces it fully and can accept BJs from Lizzy, and sometimes she want nothing to do with it and just uses her fingers. That's an example on how transgirls like us could expire our sexuality
cuisinart8
Both of those sketches sound like they'd be great ideas. No matter what, you always capture their feelings for each other so well in them! I also watched the videos, you're great on those instruments! I think my favorite was the Confortably Numb one, you got that one perfect.
