JCKun
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Update 03-03-2023: Delay, Art Block, Mental Health, Fatigue and Work
🕑 Added 2023-03-03 06:42:24 +0000 UTCHey my patrons, my familiars. Sorry that I'm late yet again with Patreon rewards, I'm still working on the 3 remaining pieces for the other tiers. You guys will be getting Wilnas from Grand Blue Fantasy and the new Pokemon Professor soon. I'm having a but of an artist block with the last one but I am on a break through. I already am drafting the pose.
The other night while I was working on pieces I experienced a bit of a deep depression episode. I won't go into detail, but I've been questioning my ability to keep pushing forward, I want to keep pushing and I will. However, my part-time and babysitting has been leaving me more physically exhausted. Which also has an effect on my mental health too. Making it harder to process and juggle things in my life.
The moment I pick up a pen, I immediately feel tired and it's been scaring me. It makes me think I'm fighting my own body. I mentally want to keep pushing and keep doing what I do and I will not stop, but every time I wanna sit down and try I'm fighting with my body, my mind, and outside factors.
I've even been working comms and rewards while on stream so I can do both and it has been successful in getting things done.
I do apologize, I know all this sounds so familiar, and these have been problems that have been plaguing me for the last few months if not years. But my resolve has not changed. I'm sorry for not managing my time better, for not being prompt but there is a silver lining and some hope.
My brother will be sending my nephew to daycare more so it has given me some leg room. My job has been putting me on shift more often, but thankfully they aren't long shifts so they should be easier to handle.
I'm gonna keep trying and I will be getting you guys the rewards you deserve.
Thank you for your support and understanding.
Love you my Familiars!
Comments
Crimson Cyclo
Whatever happens Jay, we’re always here for you. Of course your own well-being comes first, and any nasty thought that tells you otherwise is wrong. Love you bro, we’re praying for an easier time for you this year 🙏🏻♥️
