Kina Grannis
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future memories (video and backstory)
🕑 Added 2021-06-11 17:19:18 +0000 UTChello dear kg records family <3
i can't even tell you how much better i am feeling these days!! i am feeling so much joy and gratitude on a daily basis and sometimes i can't even believe it considering where i was a couple months ago. i'm finally getting back into the groove with things musically, too, which is great AND necessary, bc i just realized i better finish putting out my album before october rolls around and life becomes very very different! i've definitely got my work cut out for me these next few months :)
i am posting the below on my socials today but thought i would share it here as well for any of you trying to keep off things like instagram/fb/etc! (also, if that's you, high fives all around!)
much love and gratitude to you all. wowowow. xoxox
kina
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"future memories" post
in the early days of trying to start a family, i often let my mind wander and imagine what was to come—sitting with our baby in the sun, her amongst our family in the yard, jesse getting to be a dad. as the years went on, it became too painful to let these scenes in—letting in hope simultaneously let in a fear and pain so intense it was hard to stomach. so to protect my heart i built up strong walls between myself and that dream until i couldn’t even picture it anymore. sometimes i couldn’t even connect to wanting it, but something deep and quiet inside of me kept my compass pointed firmly in that direction.
"future memories" fell out of me one year ago during a time of incredible hope and incredible fear. we were weeks away from our first IVF embryo transfer. three and a half years of infertility building up to a moment where maybe maybe maybe this dream could be realized. for the first time in a long time, this song let me go there. the scenes snuck back into my consciousness and out of my mouth before i knew to stop them, and by the first chorus it all hit me and i broke down in tears. letting the hope back in was terrifying.
if you’ve followed along with our story, then you know that the transfer worked—we experienced a miracle pregnancy and for a short while we floated around in complete and utter bliss and gratitude and disbelief until we learned that we had lost it. the shock of such a high followed by such a low knocked us off our feet and we spent the next couple months grieving and letting go of our dream once again.
getting to release this song one year later, having mourned that loss, started over from scratch with IVF, wrestled with hope and fear some more and finally come to a sort of peace with the reality that this may never come to be, and now, being months away from welcoming our daughter into the world--it is surreal and incredible. this song was forged in a purely imaginary world, and now that world is finally merging with our actual lives. i couldn’t be more grateful. ♡
Comments
Thank you. Hope.
Nick Ryan
Bah, I’ve been too busy and came late to the party 😂 Kina, this song is a triumph for you, not just in what it represents in your life but also just as an achievement of songwriting. This embodies what I loved about your music from the first time I heard Winter. You have this way of painting such vivid pictures that give little glimpses into your soul while at the same time allowing the listener to connect with their shared experiences. Really a. Fantastic tune ❤️🎶 Also, I probably already said this to you and Jesse both, but I’m so happy for your recent news. When I saw it I think I cried a few tears of joy for you guys. I’ve been praying for you and to see it happen is such a blessing. You guys are gonna be awesome parents ☺️
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so beautiful❤️thank you for sharing the song and backstory! again, so happy for you and jesse - the news absolutely made my heart soar for you both
Love it!
Skip Stromenger
"Future Memories" is such an angelic and hopeful song. I can't tell you how happy I am for your success, and finally looking forward to welcoming your child. It was the only real thing missing in your life. Amazing!
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This child will be the most loved child ever 💖💖
You and Jesse are so deserving of the warmth and fulfillment (and sometimes chaos!) of parenthood <3
I don't think I had fully shifted my perspective on this song until now. It's so good to see you sing this with an occasional smile on your face. So glad to know life feels more like life again for you ❤
KLARA
I am so happy for both of you! So happy You will experience becoming parents! It’s wonderful!
