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PATREON ASMR| LIFE UPDATE/RAMBLE WITH LOTS OF PERSONAL ATTENTION AND INAUDIBLE WHISPERS
🕑 Added 2020-01-31 10:39:56 +0000 UTCHey loves! (2nd up close video for the month)
Triggers include: Up close whispering, personal attention, hand movements, face tracing, camera attention, face brushing, inaudible whispering, unintelligible whispering, etc.
This tingly life/health update may seem similar to the one I posted to youtube earlier this month....thats because it is. I don't often open up about my personal life on youtube much, but every once in awhile I do for all the people that cant join our safe space here. So for those of you that watched that, sorry for the double update. I go more in depth here for those of you that are always checking in on me. I hope you are all doing well! Has anything new happened this month? Let me know! I love you all and I'm so happy you are here in our safe space. XOXO Thank you all for always being so supportive and apart of this community.
BTW- I never open up on youtube due to the amount of negativity it can bring and how it triggers my sore spots....but I finally did, and Ive been overwhelmed with more love than I could ever imagine receiving. Dealing with health for the past 8yrs, Ive had more people put me down rather than be there for me. Getting sick at a young age left me very isolated with not a single person who could understand what I was going through....it left me with no safe space or even a friend that could just support me in my time of need.....and quite honestly...it left me with almost no adults who believed I was even sick. It took YEARS for any type of diagnosis! And within those years, I was told to suck it up, friends who thought I was being dramatic, push through, it was in my head, etc. I truly have PTSD from those horrific years, people who were abusive, and who didn't understand. It has left me with a fear to ever open up about my health publicly due to my hurt from what ive been told by drs, strangers, and loved ones. But I'm trying to work through that, and open up for those people who might be where I was not many years ago...those who need to feel like they aren't alone and someones struggling too. I want everyone to have that safe space I so desperately needed. I don't want to live out of my traumas anymore....I don't want to give trolls my power any longer. So if you were one of those angles that left me even one sweet word on that video-thank you from the bottom of my heart for giving me that safe space to be open with my health struggles. I can only hope to give you a moment of that safe space back! 💕
Comments
Courtney Carpenter
I NEED a up close cupped whisper video like how you did when you were talking about not having any doctor's on the west coast, etc.
Simone Groenewald
Hey Maddie, I've mentioned this before in a comment and I'll say it again - you're one of the bravest and strongest people I've ever come across!! Never feel the need to apologize for anything to do with your illness. If you're too sick to film, trust and believe that we all understand and will still be here when you're feeling strong enough to film again. Don't ever feel like you need to add any unnecessary stress or pressure. Just take care of yourself. We aren't going anywhere. You are a wonderful person and I would totally be friends with you and hang out with you whenever you needed a friend! Remember you have a friend in all of us and if you ever need to reach out on a more one on one basis to chat, I am here for you. You are an absolute inspiration and I am sending you so much love!! I wish we could find you a cure so that you could stop feeling so terrible. ❤
