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PATREON ASMR| LIFE/HEALTH UPDATE (VLOG/LIFE PT.2)
🕑 Added 2021-12-01 01:14:53 +0000 UTCHi sweet friends! How are you? How are you really?
I hope you understand the accommodations I have needed to make this month to film. Like laying in bed vs sitting up. Once my spinal fluid leak gets better I can go back to more upright positions.I'm sorry my health keeps putting me in the positions where I have to switch up the normal. I hope you know I always try to provide this safe space with as much consistency as possible. Hope you feel my consistent love, support, and appreciation for you, sweet friends. Thank you for always hold a safe space for me to open up and share what's going on. I love you lots.
I'm so happy you are here in our safe space! I'm so proud of you, always. I love you! How are you REALLY doing, bestie? Mentally and physically? I know I haven't been very present in the comments for awhile....I promise you I read everything and wait every month to check in and see how things are shifting for you in a different time. My anxiety becomes so crippling I can't reach out, or respond well to anyone. I end up in bed isolating, wishing I could get out of it for just a moment. I know that way sound silly....anyway, I just want you to know I genuinely care with all of my person. Thank you for always being with me. My cup has been so empty for quite sometime now....and sometimes all I can manage is filming the videos, then rest/sleep before the next month starts again. Ya know how they say on a plane that you have to put your air mask on first, before helping those around you? Well that applies to life as well....its something I'm very bad at, and because of that and my illnesses I've just been running on empty. I will be back in the comments as soon as I can get some self (body/mind) care and fill my cup up a little. Theres so much going on in my life right now that very emotionally draining....I am seeing a therapist and am feeling relief a slight bit from that, but Ive got a ways to go.....Thank you always for being here with me through everything. I'll be active in the comments soon, sweet friends. I just have to recharge and do some healing. But im always right here! Im not leaving you! Im still making videos here and on youtube per usual❣️ Just wanted to try and explain where ive been the past few month when many have noticed my lack of interaction in the comments. Anywhozaaaa, I love you, sweet friends! xoxo
🚨Remember, I have until the last minute of the last day of the month to get all 7 videos out. I have never not come through, and will continue to post the last few videos.🚨 Whatever you are going through, babe- you aren't alone. I'm right there with you, even if our struggles look different.❤️ I see you and I hear you, always.hope you know how proud I am of you! For doing your absolute best this month and everyday. Even if that looks different from what your neighbors best this month.💖 Hope you all are staying safe, being gentle with your mind/body, and wearing yo masks!!😷 Let continue to keep ourselves and those around us safe! Don't forget to wash yo hands as well!!🧼🤲🏻🤗 I hope you are continuing to be gentle with yourself, and those around you. remember that your feelings are always valid-even if the differ from those around you! I hope you are doing some bits of self-care....no matter how big/little. I love you all so much and continue to send love, light, and a bubble of protection over you, loved ones, animals, etc. Don't forget that this space is always here for you! You'll always have community here.
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Carolina
Your videos have brought me so much peace and comfort when I have felt alone. When I’ve been unable to reach out to those around me I watch one of your videos and I instantly feel so seen and heard. Thank you for all that you do! Sending you so much love and light!!
Munda V.
Maddie, you have got to be one of the strongest people that I have the pleasure of knowing, even if just over the internet. Not only because of the hardships you have endured as a person, and the years of chronic illness that I can only imagine would drain a person tremendously. But also and most significantly I believe, for the love and kindness you put out into the world despite this suffering. You are so authentically yourself and this alone is such a precious gift to this earth!!! You show me and others (I’m sure) that we can be ourselves- our entire selves- and still be worthy of so much care and love. You have provided me with sooo much care and comfort throughout the years, as I’ve gone through life and craved comfort that honestly only you have been able to provide countless times!! You are a blessing, and so incredibly strong. You show me that the more we endure the more potential we have to understand, to really see, and hear. Thank you for all all the love, and knowledge, you have shared! So grateful and excited to be alive at the same time as you. So glad to hear the feeding tube is doing well, as well. Xoxoxo, amanda ❤️❤️
