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EiMiko nsfw sketches
🕑 Added 2022-03-26 17:14:11 +0000 UTCGoogle Drive: here
Uncensored, hi-res version of the nsfw comics format in this Google Drive folder if image don't load.
How many is too much EiMiko? I won't say their my comfort pair, it's more like they are my muse atm that makes me want to keep drawing more art about them. It reminds me a lot of Edeleth actually.
I did draw the nsfw comics with a purpose. I said in Pixiv I drew it for "fun" though it's just be glossing over the fact that I was having a hard time aligning motivation with my feelings with JeanEula 1 given certain events irl that occurred. It did help drawing these especially since EiMiko is a powerful muse.
I think I drew more sketches and art this March, as a means to cope. A family friend died February 27. My family found out a few days late about it so I was also distressed. I wasn't able to thank properly that person for the time she took care of me years back when I was left in her care. I've been left a few times in the past to other people when my parents and brother aren't around when they have to fix something personal/family related. She was one who really cared enough to pay attention while taking care of me so her passing away from breast cancer hit hard. I thought she still had more time because she was fighting.
I wish I got to thank her before she passed away. It opened a lesson to me that I should really appreciate more of the time where people are still around and tell them properly my feelings and thank them because you don't know when they won't be around anymore.
I'm doing well emotionally now and I can say it's true, not in a "I don't want to worry anyone or act depressed so I'll act fine" way. I did want to keep seeming okay because I didn't want to my friends to worry, also I didn't want to make anyone sad either for the past weeks.
I've come to terms with her passing though some regret does linger a bit longer. I drew "My Seelie God" as a way to say I'm okay enough to make jokes, I rarely make memes so I really tried my best at joking. I still think I had quite the unhealthy coping method of trying to take up so much work and things. I need to be better at handling myself properly next time.
Anyways...something's bugging me rn and I only noticed it now...the tease text in my posts had actual text content in it? I thought they reset every new post? I'm confused with Patreon sometimes. I feel like if all my past post had teaser text in it I can't possibly go back to all of them and delete those because loading posts take too long. I'll be more mindful about that too.
