rajii
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Realization
🕑 Added 2023-11-24 17:20:00 +0000 UTCHey people! Sorry for the lack of content ๐, I had a mayor anxiety attack these past few weeks where I felt like I was going backwards on my treatment. After talking to my therapist I realized it wasn't that at all, it's just my catastrophic thinking acting up a bit which is to be expected from time to time after a lifetime of learnt and practiced behavior.
I managed to pinpoint the exact triggering factor though, it was trying and failing to make the "Garato" follow ups.
This needs a bit of context. I'm very particular in the way I approach my artwork, especially here. I pour all my creativity and energy into a single piece at a time when my muse inspires me to create.
In the case of the Garoto piece I had the idea while dreaming and I knew exactly what I wanted and how to paint it, the follow ups on the other hand where never in my mind as in they don't exists for me to create and forcing myself to reproduce the same creative energy and state of mind was and is literally impossible. It felt like 'cannibalizing' my muse.
I started this Patreon 'cause I wanted to explore my own ideas, to play and experiment, to be curious and express myself, to have fun.
I want to return to that and I will because that's who I am :]
TL;DR All kinds of different artwork. Happy Rajii is a productive Rajii
Now back to making!!
Comments
Yoshiba
I worry about Patreon and the pursuit of making your patrons happy getting in the way of being a happy artist. So, I'm glad you're able to realize that it's better to have fun and do your thing, and if people want to see that and support you then so much the better.
Rajii
Thank you!
rek city
It's good to hear that you are making good progress with yourself! Your art never ceases to amaze, just keep going at your own pace and be gentle with yourself ^-^ looking forward to see what you have in store!
Rajii
Much better ๐
Bags
Hope you're feeling better!
