Maxi
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新しい看板です fixed ver 001
🕑 Added 2020-08-24 16:35:16 +0000 UTC
I do not mind embarrassing myself with poor knowledge of languages or anything desu.
but I have been jealous of another artist that does not have to try hard and they got knowledge got the environment to get better that why yesterday I am at the limit desu.
If I am able to stay at the college for 1 more years then I might have a better knowledge of language desu. but my environment gives me no chance of doing that.
that why I will try to find another way around desu.
credit, reputation, will have bad results later desu.
that why I thought that I can not just go showing the poor side around on Pixiv desu.
but I will be able to do all of this at Fanbox desu.
yesterday I just end up thinking about it again and again and can not get into the mood to draw anything desu.
nothing, for the first time in my life, that I have a paper but have nothing to put on them desu.
I thought I already have enough hatred but that can not be compared to yesterday's feeling desu.
[the forbidden fruit] is the technique that helps me to get into the mood to find what can be exciting for me and encourage me to drawing desu.
without this technique, I would never be able to make any proper work like this desu.
I jealous those people who have a good environment
and they do not have to face any hatred from this good environment
thinking about this makes me shaking with rage and despair desu.
but do now worry desu.
thanks to your guys support me here.
I will not give up or running away like I always do in the past desu.
The only problem is
how to make a mistake and do not have to worry about reputation.
the answer is [working inside Fanbox] desu.
I believe that I have gathered a lot of people who already believe in me here.
that why even I make a mistake or show how foolish I am here
I will be sure that you guys know that I will surely make it up for it later desu.
in short
sorry for the trouble so far desu.
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P.S.
this week will have no progress to show due to Nemu-san work and these problems desu.
Comments
Maxi
News updated desu. Look like I have a fever a bit desu that also might explain why I get upset so easy desu. I will rest a bit more desu. Secret part already half way desu. I will put them on the time desu.
Maxi
ありがとうございます。
( -M-)旦
Hey! Mr.Maxi. The title of this article ×新し看板 〇新しい看板 I'm rooting for you! Sorry for my poor english.
Maxi
today is just my hand can not stop shaking desu. It really can not be help desu. I do not know how to solve this desu but it alright now desu.
Maxi
it alright desu. I feel good for working at Fanbox enough now desu. and I do not good with social desu. but thank you for recommending desu I will never stop developed desu I already made a promise on Fanbox people desu.
Hey Maxi! Don't worry about anything! Even if there will be people who don't like you or you will say something that "will ruin your reputation" - me and other folks still will be here for you. From my own experience, there always will be people who learn faster and get better while you stagger. It just happened way to many times with me. But as you know, Confucius said "It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop." There always will be people with really harsh critique or straight up hate. You, as an artist, must make a decision if you will take this criticism seriously or you will focus on another things. For example myself, I hate all kind of NTR but I see that a lot of folks here like it so I won't say "nooo stop drawing it!!". Because I respect wishes of other people. What I'm trying to say - is that maybe you need to make a circle of people who like you and will encourage you! Why not make a Discord server with your fans? If feeling bad - we are here.
Maxi
I do feel sorry for the follower out there at Pixiv but it can not be help desu. If they give me what I want then I will go back right away desu. because I want to be sure that they need me out there or not desu. if they not give me what I want then that means they do not need me out there desu.
