Maxi
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『妬ましいです』update 001
🕑 Added 2022-01-06 16:19:05 +0000 UTCmy working hours now really not stable desu.
right now about 1-2 hours per day desu.
I need to make the time for bed for rest for workout desu.
I do not want to force myself to work in exchange for the health problems desu.
but there are some problems that I can not let them go desu.
I need to solve them right there right now desu.
it ruins my schedule desu.
yesterday that CV maker takes 20$ just because I think I already unsubscribed desu.
I am still not sure If they are going to take the money again after 4 months desu.
this is just a little part of daily problems desu.
a lot of things, still new to me desu.
and I do not want my page to become like a scammer page desu.
If anyone pays by mistake on this Maxi Fanbox please feel free to PM me ne.
I just realize what it likes to be scam desu.
good thing that Fanbox can unsubscribe so easily and not suddenly force you auto to subscribe for the next four-month desu.
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but it is also my fault to be scammed by this CVmaker page desu.
it's just too many problems, and I want to depend on them desu.
in order to buy some time for me to work on something instead of spending time studying about proper ways to make a resume desu.
I already realize that the world is full of the dirty trick for people who need the power desu.
but personally, this is so pathetic desu.
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and more of some stupid problems desu.
today one of the people I know make a little success on something desu.
when I see him too happy about it, somehow it makes me frustrated desu.
maybe because I do not understand his success,
maybe because I think that he just succeeded in creating himself the cage,
what I see from his success is just the road to the dead-end desu.
I hate myself for not being able to show him some congratulations desu.
because I am not good with the poker face desu.
and I am almost in a panic and shaking because
I feel like he tries to show it to me desu.
maybe he is not sensitive that why he accidentally hurt my feeling by showing it off to me desu.
I also hate myself for not being honest and telling him that
[your success is just the simple dead-end you@!#)*(# desu]
I just simply show him my easy to predict action desu.
and look like he is satisfied with it desu.
is this called jealousy ? maybe it did desu.
jealousy or some kind of negative motivation is already part of me desu.
this person just happens to be part of people in my crew desu.
he did not really use much brain desu. he hurt my feeling a lot desu.
I think,
tomorrow,
I going to make him pay for all that he do to me until now desu.
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just want to complain desu.
somehow I feel a lot better desu.
maybe I going to let him go after all desu.
Comments
Maxi
News update desu. Today having a lot of time left desu. About 3-4 hours desu.
Maxi
stupid me who thinks that he will give me the instructions till the end desu. but thanks to his carelessness, my team has already made a move and knows who he is desu. at least we will make him take full responsibility later desu. the funny part is this guy happens to be someone who comes from the same village as mine desu. right now he lives in a city desu.
Maxi
that guy stops answering my questions desu. maybe he already knows that it is impossible desu. this P@＃％ of S!($# plans to see me and the others guinea pig results desu. going to rest now desu. I have no power left to sitdown desu.
Maxi
news update desu. just go a lot of info and look like I need to hire accountant-san desu. If Estonia rejected me[highly possible because that P@＃％ of S!($# stupid plan desu] I will need to make a record of the income every month desu. I going to delay all the service for 5 more days desu. If I making mistake, a big mistake I might need more time to solve the problems again desu. right now working on CG and solving the problems ruins my schedule desu. at least I need 3 more days for this ne.
Maxi
in short, my message so far is more like [a dying message] desu. we only can communicate through the hint desu. thank you for the comment desu.
Maxi
and please understand that I am not in the position to find someone to talk to desu. even I want, I can not desu. people who plan to destroy the Maxi page also see this message desu. all I want now is answers or some hint for the solution desu. this is the only way for me to communicate and complain desu.
Maxi
but If I successfully get rid of all the problems, or does someone has some info that can help me solve the problems then it would be [how Maxi Fanbox and the project page is overcome all the problems] desu. I want at least give credit to people who support me and people who support my agenda desu.
Maxi
hai, If you do not get it right that means I have failed at the communication desu. what I doing until now is the announcement of the problems around here desu. the problems now out of my hand desu. at least you guys have the right to know [how Maxi Fanbox and the project page is going down] desu.
Naqbi
I hope this message find you well. From your recent messages in FanBox, I feel like you are going under a lot of pressure and depression and you are looking for someone to talk to. I hope, I am wrong. Anyway, Take care of yourself and your health. I hope this message find you well. From your recent messages in FanBox, I feel like you are going under a lot of pressure and depression and you are looking for someone to talk to. I hope, I am wrong. Anyway, Take care of yourself and your health.
Maxi
perhaps If he is too successful in life I might lose someone like him desu. I am not good at leading the perfect people desu. because they are not perfect that is why they need me desu. and because they need me, I know that they are going to fight for me desu. somehow I wish for them to be unsuccessful so they can keep following me around desu. this might be my true honest feeling desu.
