troubled
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A Post...
🕑 Added 2023-09-19 22:02:40 +0000 UTCHi all,
I felt that it was important that I let you all know what exactly is going on. So...
Comics
I "had" another comic in the pipeline dealing with standard muscle/cock growth, something that should have been rather simple and easy giving the content. It flatlined when I felt the story didn't flow well.
Biceptember/Pectober
It's far too late and unlikely to happen. Sorry.
Ultimately the Reasons Being...
As some of you are aware (or maybe you're now learning) I've been dealing with on-going health (both physical and mental) issues that leave me in a state of mind where I just am not functioning.
I've been seeing a Psychotherapist for about a year and a half (almost 2 years) now, and while we do make progress in some ways, the process keeps opening multiple emotional scars that induces a stress reaction in me. It's mostly because financially, I'm always in the same exact position. Forever owing money to someone/something... in this case made worse with October's Student Loans continuing.
The continued instability of my own life, feelings of futility and unfulfillment. I've been dealing with the stress of that in unhealthy ways, like binging on video games for like 12+ hours per day, and I'm really getting nothing else done.
I always appreciate the adoration you guys shower my work with, and the support that you've given me over the years. It's literally been the only thing that's been keeping me going when things have gotten harder. Sometimes I don't feel like I deserve it, that I haven't "done enough" for it.
I don't want to take a Hiatus, because if I do, I feel like I'd end up unintentionally ghosting. I live a very secluded/detached life. There is a fear that because time means so little to me (at the moment) that something planned to be only for a small amount of time might end up spanning years.
TL;DR: I'm not posting all this to say that I'm going anywhere, or disappearing. I am just posting my thoughts and feelings on current matters. Maybe something will change, maybe they'll stay the same. I guess we'll find out in due time.
-Troubled
Comments
newdarkcloud
I keep you in my thoughts, Troubled. I hope that your health starts to improve.
RabidBadger
It's good to get out and say it, at least. This way we know what's up and we know there's a really good reason you need to dial things back. I'm glad you recognize the problem with trying to force yourself to be 'productive' when all it's going to do is hurt you, also. Though I know too well that sometimes it's hard to follow through on it. If you ever just need someone to actually say the words 'it's okay to take a break' to you I'm here for that.
