It Was Always There
🕑 Added 2022-10-11 11:14:59 +0000 UTCWho goes from a simple butt sketch to this? WHO??????
A little ode to an old man finding his repressed sexuality and self ๐ญ Aaahh! I'm feeling this.... But this got me back on track, who knew all it would take was just crying about Enji?
[ Enji, Hawks, Endhawks, Rei ]
Comments
Bontras Snide
I canโt cry today because of my talent show but Iโm crying anyway aaaaaa
ynot.hawks
Stop! I'll cry! ;-; why is this so beautiful
Muchymozzarella
Hi so. I wasn't expecting to cry at the end there but the way you've drawn the expressions is so viscerally beautiful. Thank you.
AssortedGeekery
This is so impossibly beautiful....seeing the youth come back to Enji's face in that last panel makes my heart ache in the best way.
DWW
THE WAY YOU DRAW YOUNG ENJI IS SO *deeeeep inhale* RIGHT. The way he steadily gains his muscle mass as the years go onโฆ. brUH *chefs kiss*
Wandersong
It took me a week to not fall to pieces reading this again, but I think the most beautiful bit is seeing the youth in Enji in that last panel, seeing that young man snap back into focus so many years later. Pete, this is glorious. ๐ค
MaityB
I want to watch BHNA bc of your EndHawks but I ALSO just want THESE versions to exist in my head PHHHH
Ellen Chambers
I'm a woman, but when I was a kid I would always look at the underwear section in women's catalogues so this resonated with me hard. And it's so lovely ๐
Mattson Cunther
this is soooo well written and illustrated, this one hits really hard in the best of way! โฅ
Fall (Layne)
I will say that this is so sexy. But I will also say I'm fucking sobbing it's beautiful too? You did a really great job of storytelling in this? And like I am shook
Ashyscribbles
Idek what to say, almost 200 comments probably speak for themselves and also I would sound like a broken record when I say again that your art and story telling skills are goals ๐ญ
Nat
Really well done, especially in love with the transition in the middle ๐ฅน I wanna hug this man so much- and you! You do him such beautiful justice Pete
Mandy
This is so fricken beautiful-
Leo
that last image just made my heart so happy!
HUHHH
Iโm literally breakdancing on the floor right now
Vaana
Not me crying into my morning coffee ๐ญ This is so beautiful, I can't ๐
Adalid
Crying and throwing up
STARKERMYDADIES
I cried in three different languagesโฆ
Pete
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Pete
Oh my god Iโm so happy for you! Itโs a big thing to go through, Iโm glad to have made something that resonates, even if by accident ๐๐๐๐
Pete
Aaaaahhh thank you!! ๐ญ๐โค๏ธ
Pete
Thank you ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
Pete
Lovingly bakes loaf ๐ thank you ๐ฅบ
Pete
Of course! Thank you ๐ฅฐ
Pete
Thatโs by design, Iโm afraid ๐ญ๐๐
Pete
Aaahhh thatโs good to hear! A little prescription of hurt/comfort to fix all ailments๐
Pete
Thank you so much! ๐ฅฐ๐
Pete
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Pete
Thank you! And aaaaaaaaaa please please please! ๐๐๐๐
Pete
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Aaaaaaahfgdgfhf Thank you!๐๐๐๐๐
Pete
Thank you so much Mika ๐ฅฐ๐
Pete
Iโll keep that in mind for when I retire to a tower as a gremlin wizard who makes sneaky deals for pplโs souls ๐ค๐๐๐๐
Pete
Well youโre in good company with that ๐ญ๐๐
Pete
Thank you!๐ฅฐ๐
Pete
Gotta keep yโall on your toes haha ๐๐๐๐
Pete
Had to start from somewhere ๐ฅฐ
Pete
Young Enji is so cuuutee! And ooooh man youโre right, he would have had to switch sheets daily just from accidentally scorching them ๐
Pete
Thank you so much, Nia!๐ญ๐๐
Pete
All it takes is a smile, iturns out!๐
Pete
All that melancholy needed a sickly sweet cherry on top ๐๐๐๐
Pete
Thank you! ๐๐๐
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Pete
Thatโs them summed up right there๐ฅบ๐ญ thank you๐
Pete
Thank you so much, Cath ๐๐๐๐
Pete
Endhawks feelings are never late, nor are they early - they arrive precisely when they mean to! ๐ thank you so much !๐๐
Pete
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Pete
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Pete
Thank you!! And the more I look at him now, the more I think he has the same vibe to him as I imagine Shouto having ๐ค i think young, a bit oblivious but genuine wonderment is a good description for it, yeah ๐๐๐
Pete
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Pete
For real! ๐๐๐๐
Pete
Enji has that effect ๐ฅบ thank you so much! ๐
Pete
Why yes! Yes I am ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐
Pete
Same same same!! Anytime the fire metaphors come out, itโs one-way to sob-city ๐ญ๐๐๐
Pete
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Pete
Aaaahh!! Thank you so much!๐ฅบ๐๐๐
Pete
I strike when you least expect it ๐๐๐
Pete
Sometimes thing that hurt, are good ๐ญthank you!๐
Pete
That continues being the highest praise, that my stuff can hit even without knowing the source material! And on top of that, that it feels validating - this came from a somewhat personal place too, so hearing this makes me even happier. Thank you so much ๐๐
Pete
Ellie!! Thank you ๐๐ you know me, gotta keep yโall on your toes with the sad stuff in the midst of horny ๐
Pete
All four steps of hurt/comfort right there!
Pete
KEvaaaaa aaaaa letโs cry togetherโฆ.! ๐ญ๐๐๐๐
Pete
Can you imagine the euphoria of drawing those smiles after all that old man angst ๐ฅบ๐ญ๐
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Thank you so much! ๐๐๐
Pete
Jfgsjgwjgfuwg ok ok ok but he would have thoโฆ! ๐
Pete
Thank you ๐
Pete
Honestly, thatโs all I need to hear ๐ญ๐๐ty!
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Nooooo what a timing! ๐ญ๐๐
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It felt right for him ๐๐
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Those smiles felt therapeutic to draw, somehow ๐ญ๐๐
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Pete
Thank you, always at your service to disrupt work flow with feelings ๐ฅฐ
Pete
HOMOTIONAL, if you will! Thank you ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
Pete
Both for balance๐ฅบ๐
Pete
๐ญ๐๐๐ I have a lot of emotions holed up and they shall all take form in Enji for nowโฆโฆ.
Pete
Thank youuuuuuu!๐๐
Pete
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Pete
Thank you ๐ฅฐ๐
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Pete
Thank you ๐ Happy tears this time!
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Thank you so much ๐๐๐ฅบ๐
Pete
Well I am!!๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
Pete
That peach can hold a lot of emotion ๐ญ๐
Pete
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Pete
Tears are best shared ๐ญ๐
Pete
Oh I do have The Nerve โค๏ธ
pige thomsby
; _____ ; I love this so much
Humble.b.umble
Bruh, this could not have been more perfect timing. I just started to let go of my religious trauma, and I am finally allowing myself to be happy with a girl. Iโm going to cry this comic is beautiful ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
Poeticcentaur69
Legit crying cus this is so beautiful and heartfelt! Amazing and thank you for sharing this with us!! ๐
doon ๐ชฌ
my stomach fluttered, this was beautiful
GremlinDave
This got me tearing up thank you for this bread ๐๐ผ
Kats
This is stunning. Thank you for sharing โค๏ธ
Merry Anwanet
๐ฅฒ Why am I so emotional
Haha Hala
I'm feeling a little under the weather and this made me feel a little better ๐ฅน just every page, I could feel the emotions ๐๐
Hylianprincess
Not sure I can even put into words how beautiful this is!! The shading and how expressive Enjiโs eyes areโฆ so perfect. Hawks is gorgeous as always and the last panel is just pure happiness ๐๐
Belle
Ohhhh ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
FillyBoy
I'm sobbing it's beautiful!!!!
spacehorse
oh my god this is incredible!!! you may have inspired me to write a ficโฆ
Becky Full Of Frills
OMG it is so beautiful!!!
Angie Gone
Wowโฆ.WOW
writeathome
Omg Pete this is so beautiful ๐ญโฅ๏ธ
Jessica V
Sobbing cause I love this so much
Maggie
No words just thanks, this comic is beautiful
hunty__dumpty
The last page ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ oh my heart !!
Kate
Holy shit. That was so beautiful ๐ฅน๐
Red!
WOW I LOVE THIS THE SENSE OF LONGING IS SO GOOD WOW! I LIVE OLD MAN GAYS FINDING THE WAY TO FEEL MORE COMFORTABLE THIS DID SUCH A GOOD JOB OF THAT! ITS GREAT AND BEAUTIFUL AND YOU KNOCKED IT RIGHT OUT OF THE PARK! I LOVE IT SO MUCHHHH๐๐๐๐
Mika Rosen
Thank you for the hotness and the beautifulness
Mika Rosen
I got full body chills when I read the line about fire and then got butterflies when they started kissing
Mika Rosen
The way you write oh my gosh
Vex
Pete if you wanted my firstborn I'd give it willingly
Asher
IM CRYING
Katelovesvlogg
This was the best to read first thing in the morning. I love the way you drew the expressions on their faces at the end. They are so genuinely happy. ๐
Robin
Oh my, I was expecting horny and then you hit me with all these amazing *feelings* that are just the cherry on top. Amazing <3
Thiriously
Humble beginnings.
Princess Pineapple
Young enji is such a treat. Plz bless us with my high school enji discovering his sexuality. Iโm sure that fire quirk didnโt help when the hormones were raging ๐
Nia
Pete this is SO beautiful Iโmโ this is so soft & tender & it feels so so accurate to Enji ๐ฅบ the first & last panels have my heart, this is so beautiful ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐๐๐ญ๐ญ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ
Paige
That last panel...man that got me.....
JQbrainrot666
PLEASE THE LAST PANEL IS SO SWEET I HAVE CAVITIES NOW ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ
Swiftkill
ohh my heart this is beautiful Pete trurly
tsuchinoko Tourmaline
Oh that was beautiful
maggiekarp
this feels extremely accurate and I'm having a hard time quantifying just how much I am emotionally flailing over this endeavor: wait a minute vulnerability isn't weakness??? hawks: ye endeavor: ๐ฅบ
Cath
Pete, this absolutely incredible. The sheer amount of emotion coming these pages is stunning and I am undone. ๐ฅบโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ
MagpieCrime Fancy
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Sydmicky
SIR. HowโwhyโI didnโt ask to feel things this morning! But I will thank you bc omfg ๐ญ this whole thing. Just the entire thing. Gdi
leo
i love young enji so much ๐ฅบ i love this so much, pete you love making me cry ๐ญ
Paula Gomez
I'm living for young Enji in the first panel. That look of, idk what to called it, wonderment??? That look when he was looking up from the magazine isbjustvso endearing.
taylalynn
๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ I am sobbing!
Christopher Jones
Endeavor embracing his truth. You love to see it ๐ญ๐๐
RiverGlass
OH MY GOD ๐ญ now IM crying about Enji ๐ญ Iโฆlove this so much what the fuck
Chaotica
Iโm not crying, youโre crying ๐ญ๐
Blue
Okay but the narration in this is also so beautiful. The comparisons to fire when it comes to Enji get me every time.
FunnyLittleCreature
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Blue
PETE IM CRY ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐
Olivander Addams
I'll say it again, I've never even watched or read this series, but your art has me so emotionally invested in these characters!!!! This was BEAUTIFUL and so validating!!! As someone who wasn't able to understand/put a name to their sexuality until they were in their 30s, I felt this so deep in my soul... Thank you. ๐
ElderberryElias
Pete I'm cryinggggg๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ Legit this hurts so bad but at the same time this is so wonderfully written I want to read it again and again. Fantastic work ๐
izuzuchan
Bruhhhh this hit so hard ๐ญ๐ญ I was not expecting a feels trip this early in the morning haha
DeboRAWR
PeeeeEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeetttteeeee!!! ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ The deep breathing Iโm having to do to stop from openly weeping at the airport. Peeeeeeeeeeete! You did a wonderful job! So beautiful! And the last image with Enji and Hawks! Priceless! Absolutely wonderful. ๐ฃMAGNIFICENT MAAAAAAAGNIFICENT ๐๐พ๐๐พ๐๐พ๐๐พ๐๐พ๐๐พ Thank you for my regular dose of serotonin. ๐
Ellie
Please Pete you going to make me cry. No, wait, too late. This was really lovely to read, even if it was just something that came about from a simple butt sketch xD Now if you'll excuse me imma go cry in this corner about the last page and how fucken happy they look together and imma just be dyinggggg over the page 9 and how friggen angelic hawks looks. akdfjjdkhfbksdf HNNNNNNN No horny just soft soft sobbing from me ; v ;
allii
shitting crying screaming throwing up
Liltkeva
PETE IM CRYING, my hormones are already missed up enough โฆAAAAAAA I love every bit of it, the hurt the yearning and ahhhh that last slide my hearrrrrt ๐ญ
Liltkeva
GRRRRR WOOOF WOOOF ARRRFFFFFFFF
Mo
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Kid.
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Grayson Severud
AAAAHHHHHH ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ I am absolutely In Love with this, you always make such amazing comics!!
Ren
this was absolutely gorgeous and perfectโฆ. and still all I can think about is how Hawks would have WRECKED that sweet little young Enji ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
Paige Nat
Crying this is so beautiful
Katelyn Hellion๐พ
Dude! ๐ญ๐ข this is so beautiful I dont even know what to say the emotions are so strong aaaaahhhh..I love them both so much ๐.
Joe
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Brian Carter
PERFECT ๐ญ โฅ๏ธ
Leeloo Dallas Multipass
Sobbing at 7:43 am in my work parking lot ๐ญ โค
axxxel
Im crying. Thanks for this ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
sleepdeprivedtechie .
Holy God. What a tribute.
Satanic Court
SOBBING
Mynsii
MY HEART
June
THE LAST PAGE REALLY ??? I WAS SCREAMING. Amazing ;A;
Mimblewimble
YES THIS IS AMAZING. My HEART.
Vinka
peeeete this is beautiful, you make me cry ๐คง๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
Shape
I'm at work reading this and gosh still teared up ๐ญ๐ญ this is so beautiful and sad. It's always impressive how you catch the feelings in your art even while not using so many colours and bdjsksnddnkf โค๏ธโค๏ธ Sooo good!
treeonfyre
HOT AND EMOTIONAL. HOTLY EMOTIONAL? EMOTIONALLY HOT?? This whole thing is lovely but that last image. OMG Pete. My heart. ๐
Riley
๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ BUT ALSO ๐๐๐๐ HAPPINESS!!!!!
Adwian
i dont even have words!!!! how you do this!!!
eddi
This is SOOO GOOD im cryin rn and them SMILING AT THE END??? WOW
Nagy Dorottya
omg dude ๐ฅน๐ฅน๐ฅน
TheCottonCandyZombie
Beautiful!!! Just beautiful art, and story telling.
blacknoise
BACK AGAIN WITH MORE TEARS come onnnnnnn ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
nope
Oh my god this is so beautiful. The last frame has me in literal tears
akira sargeant
Such a perfect goodnight story before bed ๐ฅน๐ฅน๐ฅน
Sunshine
This is LITERALLY so beautiful and wholesome. ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ I love the idea of Enji finally finding himself and that last page genuinely made me tear up because BOY do I relate to that. โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ
PPFiend1420
IM NOT CRYING ๐ข
SpaceNip
crying over repressed gay enji but also appreciating his peach throughout the whole comic
blacknoise
PERE come onnnn you canโt DO this to me ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญMY HEART
Rowen Reed-Peacock
Gods Pete bringing me to tears here !
Alice
How dare you make my heart flutter on that last page HOW DARE U PETEUS MAXIMUS