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Winter Fun (Hi-Res)
🕑 Added 2023-02-21 19:08:34 +0000 UTCA painting for Falindrith of FA and Twitter!
It's nice to be able to relax, even if you brought 24 other dragons to play in the snow. Whoop it happened again! Falindrith asked me to paint more of his dragons he has. This time, instead of on a beach like it was 5 years ago, it's in the winter, and there are a few more! This was a heck of a challenge, and took me... Longer than I'd like to admit, aha. Falindrith is a saint for being so patient with me on this one. It was fun to get to return to a giant group picture, though, and to try and actually give it a bit of depth, let some of the characters breathe this time, unlike some of 2018. Even if my backgrounds still feel a bit weak sometimes, I'm at least proud that I've gotten better at that. c:
Thank you so much, Falindrith, for trusting me not only with your fantastic guy again, but another massive chunk of your collection of friends! Enjoy, ya'll. c:
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IT'S DONE.
This one's been, like... 4? months in the making. Last giant group I did for Falindrith was 5 -years- ago, so it was sort of both a challenge in terms of scale, in not admitting the pun of dragon versus "scale" that I just used (working on that still), and a bit of a progression from 2018 skill to 2023.
Falindrith is an absolute saint and was inCREDIBLY patient for me on this one, even amidst juggling other projects, and when the Sad Boi times hit once in a while, making work difficult. I also did have a bit of a small panic at one point, when sending invoices and looking at what I was making, on if I was "a con" or not. Ultimately I know that's just depression and anxiety talking, but I think I'm always just a bit worried that if something isn't "better than the last one", I'm going to be called out or something. It's frustrating, but it's always on the back of my mind.
But even with that worry in mind, I'm still proud of where this landed, even if I'm not proud of the time it took. I feel I'm still a bit too slow compared to where I'd like to be. I'm getting better at it, at least on the end of "how much time am I working per week" thanks to the new medication I'm on. What used to be a struggle sometimes to focus is getting easier, and I actually managed to track 32 hours in a week just last week while finishing this up. So I'm doing better! Sure, I'm a very slow painting, because I use tiny brushes and worry too much on detail and repainting things, but the fact I'm getting better at putting in the hours themselves is promising.
My next piece is for Sombreve, starting tomorrow. Doing another landscape/set piece for Dawn of Corruption! I mayyy juggle that with one or two other projects, much smaller in scale--damnit, did it again--and if I do, I will make a text post here first to give patrons a chance to grab one of the two slots if they'd like as an extra little thank you. That goes for the lower tier too, even though they can't read this. I do also want to start streaming again. Maybe this week? If not, then next week. Part of me does miss doing that, but I think the worry of "oh am i doing something wrong" with it is what's killing me, worrying about what's on screen and channel points and bluh bluh bluh. I think I'm going to just... Do my thing. Even if it's rather quiet and introverted, which is on brand.
Things are stressful, but my head is above the water. Just doing what I can to keep work moving and keep things okay. Hopefully some personal work soon, too; once I can get a little faster and more reliable, and maybe kick one of these student loans over the finish line, I should have more wiggle room to do so. Thank you all for sticking with me, and for reading these rambles if you do. I will try to be back with more soon. Love you all. Stay safe out there.
