late night thoughts
I lay in bed every night with the same ..
🕑 Added 2023-02-06 10:41:49 +0000 UTC
late night thoughts
I lay in bed every night with the same thing on my mind. Where did I go wrong.
I spend time swiping through the apps or browsing the internet for people to hang out with. I lay here drinking and lonely.
Yes, sex is fucking amazing but sex with some type of mental connection is even better. I can't understand why it's damn near impossible to find people for drinks and conversation. No pressure and just see if there is some mutual ground. I could have done better with this or that but at the end of the day, I worked with the knowledge I had at the time. Now I'm back to square one trying to figure out how to navigate life again.
Now I spend my nights scratching my own back and thinking of regrets. I know that's not the smartest way to spend my nights in bed but that's where my brain goes.
I've been doing the whole work on yourself route but that has turned into a lonely path. I have a freedom now. I've been taking that freedom to do as I please and trying my damnest to find new people. What good is that freedom when you only share that alone.
This isn't meant to be a "woe as me" post. Just the thoughts in my head and I have no where else to share them.
