Sunday April 4th
I just had three long days of time. Time t..
🕑 Added 2021-04-05 04:47:09 +0000 UTC
Sunday April 4th
I just had three long days of time. Time to soak in baths. Time to watch movies. Time to sit on the patio and let my legs catch the sunlight.
I would love to say that I feel completely rejuvenated and refreshed, but I’m really just longing for more.
I remember days before an onlyfans. Before sexwork. Before my 9-5. Before university. Before commitments. Before hustle. When I just had nothing to do. Absolutely nothing. And I would write a song or play Fable for 10 hours or learn to make a new scone.
Maybe it’s the long winter that depleted me. Maybe it’s the pandemic that just seems to drag on and on... but I am exhausted and I miss having time to breathe deeply and just be.
I am craving fresh moments. More blissful days. Full of wants and needs, not shoulds. A whole week or even month overflowing with new experiences and peace of mind.
Are you feeling the same? Are you tired too? What are doing to push through it? What is it teaching you?
For me... it’s reminding me that freedom is so necessary for me. And vividness. Moments that feel very awake. So I am going to take more weekend trips. Explore more as the days start to warm up. Commit to a more steady practice of breathework and dance. Be present and mindful.
If you have similar goals, message me and let’s chat about it.
Hope the day was what you needed it to be. Have the sweetest of sweet dreams...
Alexandra
