I’m trying to figure out wether I should post 1 of the censo..
🕑 Added 2022-12-23 10:02:43 +0000 UTC
I’m trying to figure out wether I should post 1 of the censored stills with me and Ken stand in as promo/publicity to bring the web traffic or not.
I’d hate for Ken to see it but he asked me to delete our content and I needed b/g content. I wish he really liked me more, that we could have been each other’s, that we were more compatible, that it worked out but it is what it is. We went on 1 date and I’m probably doing that thing where im too attached.
It’s acting when I think about the content I made with Ken stand in. It’s acting is what I remind myself. I’m also I guess, single… which doesn’t erase my feelings or really make me feel better. I know I should be more baddie than this. Also, that I shouldn’t be sharing so much stream of consciousness chatting, but I can’t help myself rn.
If he wants to be disassociated with me and not sign the form cuz he’s scared of me, changed his mind or thinks his work will recognize his dick, I gotta respect that. Consent is important and standard. It would have only taken 2 minutes to fill out and I didn’t need his face, but whatever. It is what it is.
He couldn’t risk being associated with me cuz of work and there was bits of me he didn’t like either, which was understandable. It is what it is. I wanted him to play ken but at the end of the day, I want him to be happy and have a simple life. What I offered wasn’t enough and it’s okay if I’m not what’s best for him. There’s nothing more left to say even if I’m still hanging on to the idea of him that isn’t real. Thinking too much again. 😅
