Just had another huge realization in meditation I had to pul..
🕑 Added 2024-04-11 04:23:10 +0000 UTC
Just had another huge realization in meditation I had to pull myself out of it to record what I realized. You now get to have a glimpse of what went through my mind.
I suddenly realized this while I sat and focused on simply being myself. Now Who am I? Well I went into detail in the video I posted today but in short I understand that I am simply awareness. I am not the body. I am not the mind. I am most definitely not the character I've been acting as in this life. I cannot be quantified nor can I truly know who I am as awareness. (At least in this stage of my spiritual development, I haven't become aware of myself as awareness. I simply know that I am awake, aware, present)
So as I sat and focused on being aware I suddenly realized that everything that I am aware of; all the physical life experiences are actually side effects of who I am. What do I mean by that? I mean that the experiences I "experienced" exist and was experienced by me because I exist. The effect of my existence is why I had an experience. If I didn't exist there would be no perceived experience.
I then realized that holy crap! If every experience exists because of my existence; because I exist to be aware of them, then it also means that without me nothing exists. It's the whole principle of the quote "if a tree fell in the woods with no one around, did it make a sound when it fell?" I realized that the only reason things seem to exist and happen is because I exist to witness them!
You might be saying but what about other people? Wouldn't they be able to hear the tree fall in my place if I am not there to witness it? Well yes they can. From my perspective though, if I do not exist, then those "other people" also don't exist. I simply am not around to be aware of them. Nothing exists without me existing first is what I am trying to say.
This helped me understand why in quantum physics, Energy only takes on particle form when observed! For those not quite familiar with physics, Energy exists as both wave and particle at the same time. When scientists observe them, it takes particle form. When no one is watching, it just sits as a wave. Why is this important? Because our entire physical reality is made of energy in particle form. So this is a big deal because without an observer, as I just explained, Things simply don't exist. (From the observer's perspective) The potential for things to exist is there as science shows in the infinite field of quantum energy. However, when there is no observer it simply exists as a wave of infinite possibility. It can be anywhere, anything, and anyone. But it is nothing UNTIL someone observes it. Only then does it take on physical form.
That means that physical reality only exists when someone is there to observe it. You can ask scientists about this and they will tell you this is true but unbelievable lmao. They don't understand why this is but I just figured it out. It is because I; WE are conscious awareness. We are not these bodies. We are awake and aware in our bodies. Without us being awake and aware of things, those things simply do not exist. The potential for their existence is there eternally however as scientists know, until energy( the thing that makes up everything in physical reality) is observed, physical reality simply does not exist.
I wish I could tie this together in words with the spiritual teachings I learned but at this time I cannot articulate it yet. However once I find the right words, I will share my discoveries with you.
